One of my battles… forgiveness and trust… has been clawing at my insides like great bengals in a territorial dispute. How do I forgive my husband for all of damage his pornography addiction has done to our spiritual, emotional, sexual and financial health? How do I trust him to forsake his addiction when the reason he started attending group is because I caught him red handed?
For weeks I have seen forgiveness and trust as tangled together like a ball of black, white and orange fur. Then at group our facilitator shared she believed they could be separate. SEPARATE?
I want to forgive my husband because I love him. But I am definitely NOT ready to trust him. I like the idea of just focussing on the forgiveness for now.